I went to my first DV awareness meeting tonight and I'm starting to feel free, know that I need to leave, and be able to figure out how to get the support I need. I have to be brief because my abuser is in the house, but I just wanted to tell someone.
Everything he does and says feels disgusting to me. I can't wait until the end of January when I can get my kids out of here and TELL HIM WHY. I know if I brought up any of it right now, I'd be endangering everyone, including the dog.
And my situation is uncommon, because he has never been physically abusive, just verbally. But we all walk on eggshells aorund here and my son plays his make-believe games and says things like, "God Dammit!"
It's that nebulous line of abuse that he walks. Nothing he does is straight-forward, but everything he does tows the line of abuse.
I can't wait until I'm safe and out of here. And I, too, checked half the things on one of those "Does your partner do this...?" checklists and was amazed.